back alive!

I've abondan my blog for the past few months. Well.. really miss my life when i'm free to online, watch tv, eat and sleep whenever i wan when i'm working.. haha.. and now my life is back. now i'm working only on the weekends. weekdays which i'm going to use it to catch up with my long time no meet friends. Wow! i miss them. Its such a long time i didn't online. They told me, i've dissappeared.. and suddenly back alive!. Even though i'm busy with life, i still keep myself a bit active with the activities organised by the college. I attended the Camp and also the Prom organised by BAS and SRC of College PTPL. and yeah thats the time i get to chit chat with my friends again. Miss them so much. Pictures are uploaded in Facebook =P. Will update more about my life when i'm free since the laptop is back for a week =P

Sick

Haven't went to work for the past two days. Today is the 3rd day. Thank goodness my fever subside already. But i still don't feel good. Sometimes feel dizzy and feel like vomitting. But everyday stay at home lying down on the bed really makes me more and more weak. The medicine i ate makes me so drowsy. Even now i couldn't sleep anymore because for 2 days already i slept for almost the whole day. The only time i'm awake were just the time for me to take my medicine. So super blur even my mum said i don't look normal. =/ The food i consumed nowadays are so yuck... Already got no appetite and looking at the food makes me even no appetite to eat. But what to do? That's what sick people eat.

Time passed really fast. Just a blink away and its the end of July already. Welcome August! =)
This is my first time working and i gained many experience and also some braveness to approach people learned some new stuffs. Learned how to deal with the cash register, find the boxes according to the codes, and also improved my patience when dealing with the customers of many many kinds of behaviour. My colleagues are all very friendly and nice and caring people. Lucky me to have such great friends, for the first time working.

The sad part, one by one of my colleagues are leaving. All... back to college. And some are having some transportation problems. So.. I just got to wish them all the best and Hope to see them again. I'll miss all of you.

Here comes August. Here comes my results in another three weeks time. I will be attending a Leardership Camp organise by the Business and Accounting Society. So i just get to view my results after the camp. And also i guess this is the good opportunity to catch up with my seniors. They are leaving soon after completing their ACCA. All the best to everyone out there. ~

My colleagues

Its me and my colleagues at lovely lace. :P

From left : Magdaline, Lilian and Chun Keat

WE are promoting the bunnies in our shop. Hahah!

Long time no blog... Time pass really fast. After this week i already work for a month! Its just a feeling like i just started work last week.. Huh! REally fast. Nowadays too tired to blog anything. Everyday my routine is just doing the same thing. Wake up, go to work, back home, sleep and the cycle happens again the next day..

My Tv life all gone. The only time i watch a movie is just during my off day when i went to the cinema for a movie. Still haven't watch Transformers.. =.=. And Harry Potter is coming up. Ice Age watched twice. Damn funny. But both times also watch 2D only .. Really wana watch a 3D movie. Never watch a 3D movie before... Hmm.

The only difference in my life is now that i have many new friends. Thats my colleague. And also i see the difference in my body weight. Just three weeks of working there and i gained 2 kg.. Hahaa.. Gurney memang banyak makanan enak. And also my pocket also very cepat berlubang with the price.

And after going through reading my friends blog this is the first time i see Dinashehiinii pakai so hot... Walao.. But too bad. I just tengok picture only... =.-.. never see her wearing so elegant in her real person.

I'm so tired today. Its a busy day off at workplace from morning until night. Mega Sales started. Usually at this time i'll be so hapyp that i get to go shopping. But i guess now i just got to see people shopping. Sobs.. And i'm sad that Chun Keat is leaving so soon. Heheee. Thanks to him for his donuts.

Daddy cooked crab today. Learned from my grandmother. Lol. Its history today! First time after 19 years, with my own eyes i saw my daddy cooking.. The food for me its sure delicious.. haha. no doubt his my daddy. but for other people i don't know. For me, no comment. I just eat it until clean clean shiny shiny. Lol.

I couldnt sleep well tonight. After dinner i just dozed off and keep waking up and sleeping back again. the weather is just so terribly hot, and my mood is just terribly bad. I'm feeling so frustrated with myself and i feel so bad for hurting other peoples feelings. I'm just not worth for him. He is not worth to be hurt because of me. Why life is like that?

I need air con and i want it. I neeeedddd it... Arrghh... All day long im just swaeting. And my head is spinning like a merry go round. I think i better go to sleep now. And i can say bye bye to lappy until the next trip my sister comes back to penang again. I love you lappy. will miss you..

life is full of ups and downs.

sometimes i hate to live so much.
sometimes i just love to live so much.
sometimes i just don't like to smile or feel that everything is annoying me. and frustrating!
sometimes i just smile and laugh like a mad girl with no sense.

my first crush. i ended up being with him for three years. yeah.
my second crush started avoiding me and ended up we become like a complete strangers.
my third crush is the one I've never met before. never seen before only photo. if i could meet him. but this will never happen.. or may be it will happen someday, one day. who will know?
i don't know who i really care or love in this life now.
the person whom i care wont or cant be with me.
the person whom i don't have feelings for likes me.
what is this world all about??
it's so confusing.
it's useless to be with the guy who likes you when you don't have any feelings for him.
it's just one word when you are with him holding hands. the word is WEIRD.
I've tried before.
my life is so complicated. I'm tired of it.

I'm really tired of my life now. If i can be in KL now. i want to meet 'phantom' so much.

This is the reason why I'm starting to get sick of relationships. The happy moments are always less than the sad moments. The sad moments last forever but the happy moments will always be memories. I hate my damn life now. Its useless.....

Now all I'm doing is just study study study, work work work, eat eat eat, complain and complain and complain. Is is so hard to find a perfect soulmate? The one that fulfil all my criteria?? Whatever it is. Just a crap. I'm so fed up with my life now.

Working week

To phantom, why didnt reply me lol? busy nowadayss??

At last a week is going to pass soon. First few days after standing for so many hours honestly i feel that my legs are going to break into half.. Came back left no energy but just went on the bed and sleep round the clock.. haha and im now used to it. Still got energy to type this blog after working lol. Many new stocks arrived past few days. Busy putting the price tags and also arranging the stuffs?? Hmm. i learn many things just in a few days time. Now that got another two new staff employed i no need to work so long hours anymore i guess... 6 to 7 hours only lor =P.

Those days are gone when we were together
and I want you so much whenever i think of the past
I don’t know what to say, I dont know what to do
Never meant to feel this way but i wish....,
I wish you are now by my side hugging me once again.

Sometimes i have nothing else to do
Sometimes I feel lonely
Sometimes im frustrated
Sometimes i think of you
I dowana be alone.

I wonder if you would ever love me again.
I know it would never be,
And will never happen again.

Seven months had past,
yet i still feel you in my heart
And sometimes, I miss you Terribly.
But words were unspoken
whenever i meet you by chance.

I never loved anyone as much as i love you,
I wish i could tell you this.
But it's too late. Sometimes there is no second chance.
I really regretted what i've done 7 months ago. My decision.


There are many places we went together, everywhere i go, everything i did, everything we shared together. There were just these sweet memories and precious moments to be remembered, to be kept in my heart.
I miss you, Wei Loon. , i really miss you....